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“I’m fine, Aunt Eleanor. How are you?”

And tucked inside page forty-two—the yacht, the two shadows—a handwritten note in Eleanor’s looping, violet-inked script:

I put my tea down. “Aunt Eleanor, these are just old ads. Photo manipulation wasn’t even—” girly mags

“Keep turning,” she says.

“That one’s a respire ,” Eleanor whispers. “Breathes in longing. Feeds on the wanting. The ad says ‘Indulge your desires.’ But the desires aren’t yours after the respire finds you. They belong to it. You just keep buying the perfume, thinking the wanting is your own.” “I’m fine, Aunt Eleanor

And somewhere behind me, in a fourth-floor flat that smells of violet powder and old paper, Eleanor opens Charme to the pearls and whispers something to the woman in the reflection. The woman in the reflection whispers back.

I turn my phone over. The screen lights up with a notification from an app I don’t remember installing. A photo-editing app. The icon is a woman’s face, half-turned, looking at something just over my shoulder. Feeds on the wanting

“One more thing,” Eleanor calls from her chair. She hasn’t moved. She’s holding the Charme again, open to the pearls. “When you were thirteen, you told me you wanted to be beautiful. I told you that you already were. Do you remember what you said?”